Forever Families

I am not sure why I bothered. You can't convince a TBM or a bunch of TBMs that your family, though not married in a temple(blech), if there is an afterlife, will be together forever in that afterlife. I have been trying on a certain mormon women's message board to convince the ladies of just that. I have no idea why. It's aggravating as hell. They just keep throwing scriptures and GA quotes at me that have no meaning to me as I don't believe a damn thing those scriptures and GA's say. I have told them that. Then I get the old, "Satan is working on you" bullshit. Whatever!

I think I have said this before. The initial reason I walked out of church and never came back was because I just got really sick of all the temple marriage to have an eternal family talks in SM and RS. It gets wearing to constantly be told to enjoy your family now because you won't have them for eternity. It got me to thinking, if God is like this mormon version, I am not sure I want any part of him. I honestly don't think he or she is anything like the mormon version. The nitpicky(no flip flops or denim to church, only one earring, don't show any shoulder or you'll be walking porn, have to be married in some overdone, overdecorated building), conditional loving(homosexuals, nonmembers, unbelievers can not be with God in heaven), flipflopping(blacks can't have the priesthood, they can have the priesthood, be polygamists, don't be polygamists, sheesh make up your mind already) God I heard about at church did not and does not match anything I ever imagined he or she to be. If there is a God I imagine he or she to be a lot more compassionate, understanding, nonracist, nonhomophobic, nonsexist, and having unconditional love for all of us. I will cling to that until I die and am either proved right or wrong.

Anyway, I am rambling. Probably not even making much sense. I am just too annoyed. I rarely get mad at mormons anymore. Not since 2 months ago when I debated homosexuality with one TBM lady who likened homosexuals to people who commit incest and pedophilia. What a bitch she was. I hate people like her. I don't usually hate people either. It's just not in me. But her! She just had my blood boiling. She will forever think of me as that struggling inactive mormon who doesn't listen to what God tells the prophet. She was the epitome of one of those "When the prophet speaks the thinking has been done" mormons.

Well, I guess that will do for my angry inactive mormon rant this month.