Untitled-Simple Plan

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I'm not really this depressed. It just kind of explains my feeling about not being able to believe in a church that I was taught since birth would be my salvation. A lot of people may think I am doing this because it's too hard for me to be in this church because I want to sin or because I have been offended. It's so much more than that. It's like finding out your best friend fucked your husband in your bed wearing your Victoria Secret nightie. Total betrayel. I am not mad though. My angst stems from sadness. It's a heartbreaking situation. The upside to this is now I can truly be free to be the woman I was meant to be. I am free to think and feel how I want. I can know that no matter what I do I will still be loved my God. I know I am a good person. I know that anyone can be a good and HAPPY person even if they don't believe in any higher power. I know anyone can be a good and HAPPY person and be in whatever religion they want. God isn't the picky one.