Up Late Again!

I really should be in bed. My eyes are heavy and my ass is tired from sitting here. For some reason I just don't feel like going to bed.

I am not even sure what I want to write about. There's not much going on in my life right now. Sheesh I think I have written that exact same sentance before. Oh well. I am too tired to be too creative.

I found my Weezer cd. A couple of weeks ago I wanted to listen to it but it wasn't in my cd case. I looked everywhere, or so I thought, but I couldn't find it. Then yesterday or was it Saturday, I don't know, I forget, I decided to look in a pack of empty cds and BAM there it was. I don't remember putting it there and dh said he didn't put it there. How the fuck it got there I don't know but I am glad I found it. I was afraid it was hiding away with the remote to the DVD player, which I haven't seen in over a year. There is a black hole somewhere in my apartment.

I just have to say that I am loving life right now though. The last few months have been bitter sweet but I think I am finally coming out of the funk I have been in since I lost my faith. I mean I was happy with my decision but I have been driving myself nuts worrying about what to tell my family if anything. I finally just decided to let it go. If I ever have to tell them I will and deal with it then but I am not going to worry about it anymore. It's not worth it.

I feel free. I feel like I can now believe whatever I want. I can like whoever I want. I can accept whoever I want no matter their lifestyle. There is so much I can't wait to discover. It's like losing my religion(sorry REM) has made life interesting. I don't know if I am making sense. I am half asleep after all.

Okay I guess I will go to bed. I am not making sense.