Nonsense

I just thought I would come on here and just start rambling about nothing in particular. It is what I do best after all.

I am not a patient person. I want what I want,when I want it and sometimes I will act like a child until I get it or if I don't get it. For instance right now I am unbelievably baby hungry. I want to get started on another kid. Now. Not tomorrow, not in 6 months not in a year, NOW! Dh wants to wait a few more months. He has good reasons. I am not a reasonable person when I am not getting my way so his reasons mean nothing to me. In fact they just sound like excuses to me. I am not going to list them because any sane person would take his side. When I am being unreasonable I don't want anyone taking anyone's side except my own. So guess who is getting their way? Nope, not me. We used a condom. Damn!

I recently found an old friend of mine from High School over on Myspace. I found out she lives just north of me. I also found out she is now Jewish. When I knew her she was mormon. I am beyond excited. I haven't asked her about it yet. I think it would seem weird to have just reconnected and then start asking her "So why are you Jewish now, I remember being your secret sister at YW"s camp, what happened?" I am dying to know though. I will give us a few more weeks to be reaquainted and then I will ask about it. Unless she brings it up first. I mean I have put on my profile over there at Myspace that I drink now. She might be wondering what's up with that.

My sister's birthday is Saturday. She will be 23 years old. She's TBM and unmarried and thinks she's getting too old to ever find a man. Fucking church. It brainwashed her into thinking that being 23 and unmarried puts her on old spinster status. I didn't get married 'til I was 24. I guess in the Mo world that makes mine a "late in life" marriage. Sheesh. I have another sister who turned 25 this year. She feels the same way as my almost 23 year old sister. I wish they would listen to me when I tell them that they are very much worthwhile human beings and women even without a husband and kids. They dont' believe me. Fucking church!!!

I just have to say that nutty as my life is, I am glad that at least I didn't let the old white dudes in SLC tell me who to marry, when to marry and where to marry. I feel like I followed my heart when I married my husband. I thank God everyday that I married someone I was in love with and who has encouraged me to live my life to it's fullest and doesn't think his word is the be all end all of words. I am glad I didn't wait around until I found an RM who deemed me worthy enough to be one of his many celestial wives. I am glad that those kind of men didn't seem to like me. I am glad that I didn't let anyone tell me to just wait, that RM in a shiny station wagon will come along to take you to the temple and then you can have a bazillion children and lose yourself trying to take care of them. Phew, I dodged a bullet there!!

Okay, enough nonsense. I really need to go to bed and poke some holes in some condoms! JUST KIDDING!!! I AM JUST KIDDING!!!! I would never do that. Seriously, I would never do that. I'm just trying to be funny. Sheesh!!