Why!!!!!

I had a major headache for the last couple of days. Luckily it's gone now but wow did it suck. I don't know why I have to have a headache that lasts two days. Not Fair!!

So today we did our regular weekend activity of grocery shopping. My life is so stinking boring. We are the most anti-social people on the planet I think. We have NO friends here. We are both shy(irl) and we have a hard time making friends. That's another thing I did not get from church; the ability to stick my nose where it doesn't belong and force people to be my friend. I don't like calling people, seriously the thought of calling people on the phone puts me in such anxiety, like sweaty palms, rapid heartbeat, thoughts of "oh shit what if they get mad at me for calling or what if they don't really want to talk to me and get annoyed with me" I have a complex. I don't know why. I don't remember ever having a tragic phone experience. It is truly unexplainable. At least it seems to be.

It's not that I don't want friends. I do! I would love to have someone to go to lunch with or shopping with or to go with me to the liquor store. Someone I can talk to about anything and laugh our asses off. Yeah, sure I can do that with dh but there is something about hanging with the girls that I love. I miss it. I used to have friends, but life happened and we have all gone our seperate ways only sending each other the occasional email. There are promises to get together but it never happens. My sisters are fun to hang out with but I can't take them to the liquor store, not unless I want them convening an intervention for me to show me the wickedness of my ways. They are fun to shop and eat with though. At any rate they live thousands of miles away from me so............

They need to come up with a book "How to make friends when you are a neurotic, silly, and slightly corny almost exmo" Hey maybe one day I can write that book. If I ever make any IRL friends that is!!